11.28.2023
I'd also like to subtitle this as: The Journey to Self-Actualization
I have never felt more alive than I do right now. I imagine that the feeling of "being alive" would fancy something like intensity, being present, truly feeling; if that even makes sense. There is so much going on in the world. So much death, grief, rage, and heartbreak. And it has been heavily weighing on me. It's still so surreal to me that this is the world that I – that we live in. But in the midst of everything, I find solace and a sense of peace in writing & journaling. I love writing. Always have.
I didn't really know when I would get back to sharing some of my thoughts with the world, but I knew I eventually would. There's just been so much going on – globally & personally, and I have so much to share.
*exhales*
I imagined that my "come back" would be this BIG thing; some type of announcement or proclamation that "ya girl is back," but contrary to my customary fashion, I've found myself in such seclusion, from a social standpoint, and even a bit coy, which is unusual for me, but I'm leaning into and embracing it. I've been in such an introspective space. Very much enjoying the solitude. I'm learning so much about myself, and others too. Something's happening. Obviously within the world, but also within myself. A transformation or evolution of some sort, and I thought what better time to share about this journey that I'm on than now. Part of me feels as if I'm opening the door wide open for the continual perusal of my being and existence, but fuck it lol *shrugs*
So I'll end with this, as I feel it is the emergence of something; what that something is, I'm still trying to figure out. Perhaps we'll figure it out together.
I can't promise you much right now. I currently find myself being particularly commitment averse, in many areas of my life 🙃 but also focused on the present, the right now, because it's truly all we have.
While I can't promise you much right now, what I can promise is to always keep it a stack. Continuing to live out my truth, no matter what that looks like.
To deconstructing, decolonizing, decentering, and being revolutionary & liberated,
- T